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[inhumandog]

Why...why would you wander about in those hideous clothes? [He pauses for a moment, his breathing a bit heavy as he really doesn't like this type of cold.]

This is utterly ridiculous. What's the point of wandering around a marketplace? [No, Iago  doesn't get that it's pretty. There's a sigh of annoyance and he cuts the transmission off, certain that everyone knows of his disapproval.]

[Spam for Judas- Before the ship docks]
[Early in the morning, after being in the gym for his morning workout, Iago really didn't feel like eating. Or going back to his room. In fact, he really wasn't sure what he wanted to do. He was restless for whatever reason and so made his way to the second floor common room, a place that he had visited often the last season on the Barge. And, quite frankly, he was not surprised to see Judas there.]

Judas... [He hesitated, as if he wanted to say more, but decided against it, moving to sit beside him carefully.]

((ooc: I'm just assuming that Iago at least got off the ship with the Marquis. Everything else is going to be left somewhat vague.))

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Re: Spam

[heavenonthemind.livejournal.com]

[Judas shifted uncomfortably at that. It would figure that even after everything, even after helping his drunk ass on the day that should have been happy, Iago would continue to doubt him. After a few more quiet moments, he stiffly replied,] what do you need?

Re: Spam

[inhumandog.livejournal.com]

[Iago was very rarely grateful for things. For anything anyone ever did for him.]

Redemption, obviously. [He spread his hands out in front of himself and then faltered.]

Or maybe just...some semblance of normalcy.

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[heavenonthemind.livejournal.com]

[Judas's hard, stony look began to fade some, unable to take this from Iago. He had no idea if Iago would dismiss and ignore him again the second he didn't need him again.]

I'm likely graduating soon. I won't put up with being ignored.

[Or so he bluffed. He knew that he couldn't expect that from the soldier and it showed just barely under a crack.]

Re: Spam

[inhumandog.livejournal.com]

You never did, Judas. [came the calm reply. but he managed to put a finger to his lips in thought and reconsider what he said.]

Congratulations on graduating, at least.

Re: Spam

[heavenonthemind.livejournal.com]

[Judas stood up again at the reply, hating Iago so much in that moment. The soldier was always cool, composed, and calm when handing out insults.]

You don't mean that. You can lie to whoever you like, but I won't believe you.

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[inhumandog.livejournal.com]

[Iago seemed genuinely confused at that and just tilted his head to the side.]

Lie about what? My congratulations? Of course I'm not happy for you, Judas. Or were you meaning before? You never did put up with being ignored, Judas.

That's not a lie.

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[heavenonthemind.livejournal.com]

[Judas's temper was starting to rise.]

Your congratulations. You're never happy for anyone except yourself.

[He moved toward the door, not buying the act at all.]

Be happy with yourself, Iago. Don't drag me into it.

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[inhumandog.livejournal.com]

[He shook his head.] I never pretended to be happy for you graduating. [Because he remember the foolish promise they had made, as well. He remembered what they had said.]

I'm not dragging you into anything, Judas. But if you wish to leave, then do so. I won't stop you.

[He wanted this to go so differently. But he couldn't get what he wanted. Not now, at least.]

Re: Spam

[heavenonthemind.livejournal.com]

[Judas's lip curled a little at that and he shook his head a couple times.]

You piece of shit.

[He was quickly becoming more and more flustered the longer he stayed, that much he was sure of.]

You never... [he snorted in derision, and a wave of self-hate rode over him. Of course. Iago would never admit his plans. Or to any wrongdoing. It was always someone else's fault. He hated Iago. He hated everything the soldier stood for and everything he didn't.]

I was a fool to ever be loyal to you. You're... you're free of any obligation you may have ever had to me.

Re: Spam

[inhumandog.livejournal.com]

[Iago turned dark and stood up, shaking his head at Judas.]

You were a fool to be loyal to me. But only because you knew who I was. You knew what I was. You knew what I did to JD for less than what happened before. [He ran his fingers through his curls.]

I'm sorry if you thought that I was anyone else. For a while, I was...for a while, I might have been...but I never really changed. And neither did you.

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[heavenonthemind.livejournal.com]

[Judas's anger was fully flared at that and he took a couple aggressive steps toward Iago.]

I didn't know you were. Sexby told me later. After we had started... [just another sound of disgust as he continues on.] I didn't expect you to change for me. I never thought you would. Not until... when we went to Masterworld, you did change. You were a good, honest man and I was thrilled, thrilled that you seemed to be doing right by yourself and by others. I believed that until August. I swear. I swear I believed it, and I believed in you. I loved you with all my heart and then...

[Well he was sure they both knew what happened then. Quietly, he sank down into a chair, his anger extinguished almost as quickly as it came. He remembered how he'd begged and pleaded for forgiveness. How he'd done everything but end his own life to try and earn Iago back, and it wasn't for lack of trying.]

I did change. I have changed. And you have too. You've changed back into that man you were before.

[He let his hands sit on the arms of the chair, turning away from Iago, simply unable to look at him at the moment.]

Re: Spam

[inhumandog.livejournal.com]

You read the book, Judas. I sat there while you read it, translating. [He shook his head.] You can't feign ignorance. And yes, for a while, I was something different. Maybe it was supposed to stick, maybe not.

But the truth, Judas...the truth is maybe I'm not supposed to change. Maybe this is who I am supposed to be.

But you couldn't tolerate that.

Re: Spam

[heavenonthemind.livejournal.com]

You wouldn't still be here if that was true.

[And Judas himself didn't want to forever be a traitor.]

I read the book, yes. And I accepted you for who you were and you still lead me on. For years.

Re: Spam

[inhumandog.livejournal.com]

Led you on? Bullshit, Judas. I didn't lead you anywhere. I was genuine in my feelings for you, but you refused to see that. Instead, you decided that I never had love for you and everything was ruined.

[The soldier shoved his hands in his pockets and went to go stand beside the fire.]

Re: Spam

[heavenonthemind.livejournal.com]

[Judas opened his eyes in honest surprise.]

What? You told me you never loved me, that none of it was real. You told me, to my fucking face that none of it was real, that you never loved me. You told Sexby too. You told him when he came...

[The Apostle rose to his feet and simply threw his hands in the air.]

Fuck you, Iago. I hope you rot in Hell. You deserve it, you truly deserve it.

Re: Spam

[inhumandog.livejournal.com]

[Iago could do nothing more than just shake his head at him.]

Judas, I told you that because you hurt me. I told Sexby that because I hate Sexby and I wanted him to leave me alone.

You said things in anger, did you not? Things you didn't mean? Things you really wanted to take back. [But he stayed by the fire, not stopping Judas if he chose to leave.]

Re: Spam

[heavenonthemind.livejournal.com]

[That halted Judas's temper and he shook his head.]

I told you the things I wanted to take back. Months ago. And you wouldn't listen to a single word of it. Not while I begged, not while I pleaded for you to listen to me. You're nothing. You're nothing.

[He marched off toward the door, wrenching it open. But his anger wasn't quite gone and he gave the mistletoe a rough pull and tore it into pieces.]

Re: Spam

[inhumandog.livejournal.com]

[Iago glanced behind him and sighed.]

Judas...[He doubted it would stop him. This kind of anger was difficult to halt. But he tried and that was all his stubborn pride would allow.]

Re: Spam

[heavenonthemind.livejournal.com]

[Judas flicked the pieces in Iago's direction. Even as he did so, the very distinct memory of their first kiss rose in his mind. How quiet, how peaceful and serene it had been. How the mistletoe hadn't mattered after a couple moments and it was just them and their genuine feelings. Shaking his head again, he began to tear up.]

[Weakly:] Don't speak to me. Please. Ever. Ever again.

Re: Spam

[inhumandog.livejournal.com]

[Iago just held up a hand towards him in dismissal. If that's what he wanted, then so be it. Iago didn't think this would be their last meeting, but it was clear that no matter what he said, it would all just turn out worse anyway now.]

Re: Spam

[heavenonthemind.livejournal.com]

[Judas's teary gaze turned angry again and threw his hands up in the air. Of course. Iago won, Iago always won. With a foul look, the Apostle left the common room and slammed the door behind him.]